Reliance

I am far too reliant upon people and circumstances for my happiness. I seek to often the fleeting affirmation of fickle individuals and ever-changing circumstances. I look to others for my value and not to the face of my true love, Jesus. How I must hurt His heart! I yearn so passionately for recognition and pursuit. Yet, I already possess it? Why then do I run towards emptiness. I cannot seem to rest in the arms of my first love and great pursuer. I hate that people have the ability to control my feelings and emotions. I despise, but love my reliance on individuals. We are meant to be in community, but the fickleness of humanity makes it difficult to ever be safe. I must run to the One who will never fail...only then will I be safe.