Friday, October 7, 2011

Solitude and choices

I'm in a lonely season, a solitary season. And I don't love it. I don't hate it, but I don't love it, and most days I want to run far far away. But, I can't. I'm just here and I have a feeling I'll be here awhile. It's good, I know. There are things I must learn as I sit in the stillness, but if I'm honest, on days like today, I don't care about learning lessons, I just don't want to be lonely anymore...

But, I'm learning that even loneliness is a choice, to a degree. Everything is a choice. We cannot control where we, or how long we're there, but we can control how we choose to act & react in that space. I may not be able to control the fact that I feel lonely right now or control how long I will be in this season of solitude, but I do have the power to choose how I will respond to these things...

So, the question is: how will I choose?

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Just call me the resident expert...

My job is a unique one, in that I wear a lot of hats, and they are constantly changing. I could be called on at any moment of any day to answer any question, ranging from the periodic table, to algebraic equations, to the uses of relative pronouns, to how to determine the volume of an irregular object, to explaining the nature of sin and the gospel. I think I'm going to start referring to myself as the "resident expert," although I'm discovering I'm not an expert of much, besides royally flying by the seat of my pants...