Summer progresses...and with it--my life. I am settling into work at the pool, its routine, as well as a fairly settled pattern of daily life. The days no longer stretch out before me like vast expanses of nothingness, but rather as venues for life to take place. It is, however, easy to slide mindlessly into a routine in which one loses all perspective and desire for growth...monotony and routine can indeed foster stagnancy. The daily battle is then to fight madly against this ever-pressing flow towards "stuckness." The natural progression of life tends towards this position of being stuck--stagnant in a place, a mindset, a routine--so stuck that one cannot be free. It is an odd paradox--I personally desire routine, sameness, consistency, yet I loath it all at the same time. My own nature tends towards the former and it is for that very reason that I fight against it...
Well, the routine will be broken this Thursday at a bleary-eyed 6:50 a.m. when I leave for Kansas, a wedding, and revelry. My dear friend Jill is getting married and I am fleeing the terrible heat of Texas, for a time, in order to partake in the festivities. I cannot wait...but then again, I can. Life is here, now--the present--not then. I refuse to live forever in the future, or for that matter in the past. Life is here and it is now...
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