Greater understanding...

I came to an interesting realization tonight. It was not monumental or life-changing, but significant. I am a task oriented person. I think inwardly I would like to imagine myself strictly people oriented, but as I survey my life, my days, my priorities-tasks dominate. I have a passion for people, but I function well when given tasks, or have a goal to attain, something to complete. I despise this about me, in a way. Why cannot I be free from such constraints? I know it is a personal choice, how one orders their life, but can I go against the grain of my nature? Upon reflection, I detest how much pleasure I gain from finishing a given task-it's strange, I think...who knows-I am who I am, but perhaps one can change this...new thoughts upon which to chew.